unpack

i have a tendency to look towards the next step ("always thinking one step ahead; like a carpenter who makes stairs." ha. i love the office.). i don't think it is bad to think/plan ahead. however, it is wrong to live for tomorrow. or even worse IN tomorrow. this is exactly where i am in my life right now. the end of my internship is in sight. scary and exciting. i have no idea where the next step will take me. but i really want to go ahead and get there. there is something about the human condition that moves us to avoid attachment. to avoid pain. we choose the easiest path. it's a coping mechanism. so much of our decisions are made on the understanding of which option will be less painful, and that sucks.

i moved in with a new family. my room has been full of boxes/suitcases for 2 weeks. today, i unpacked. i have been super busy the past couple of weeks and was just not able to carve out the time to do it before today. *part of me didn't want to unpack, because i know i will just be packing everything up again in a couple of months. however, as long as my things were all in suitcases/boxes, i couldn't enjoy my room. too much stuff everywhere [not very homey (sp?)].

i know i live my emotional/spiritual life the same way a lot of times. i don't unpack anything/open myself up to real relationships, because i know it won't be too long until i'll be moving along in life, and it will hurt to leave. BUT YOU HAVE TO UNPACK TO EXPERIENCE TODAY. it's not easy, but it's necessary. so, let's unpack. let's live today. let's make our choices not based on the avoidance of pain but on the pursuit of significance, the pursuit of a Savior.

God would never choose for us safety at the cost of significance. God created you so that your life would count, not so that you could count the days of your life. -Erwin McManus